Times I should’ve realized I was autistic

Times I should’ve realized I was autistic

since finishing this video ive been officially diagnosed so ye B)
more resources:
– ASD in adults: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/autism/signs/adults/
– RAADS-R Test: https://embrace-autism.com/raads-r/#Who_the_test_is_designed_for








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24 Responses

  1. Hopeless Peaches says:

    I can relate to needing headphones and getting weirded out at specific things. My parents used to keep asking why I needed headphones everywhere I went, but that’s because they didn’t see that when I was alone walking the dog, or on the train, the sounds of other people or sounds of rustling really got me upset and wanna escape home OOF.

    I don’t know if that means I have autism per say, but I can relate to a good chunk of this video. But I also know I’ve had untreated depression since I was little, and got a prognosis for ADHD, so as you said: similar symptoms might be baking different types of cake.

    • Clxudy_Skies ☁️ says:


    • 愛乞うAikou says:

      ADHD and depression are two common comorbidities for ASD. Have you taken any test?

    • Pickle says:


    • *(ätmên)* says:

      You’re lucky every time I keep asking for some music they never let me because I’m not allowed to do that and they don’t disregard the fact that I get over stimulated by everyone’s voice a lot of the time I listen to what everyone is saying unintentionally and it’s really hard keep asking listening to music so I can just focus on what I’m thinking also helps me deal with doing my work at school

    • Galeo says:

      when i hear loud noises i 1 eather try to be louder or 2 just get annoyed and stop talking.

  2. XanderVs says:

    With me being one of those “lucky white boys” I was diagnosed at a very young age which honestly came in to help me alot with all the issues I had. Especially my “blackouts” but, unlike alot of people on the spectrum they were pretty dang violent. Although I know what I did was wrong alot of people at my middle and elementary school didn’t know how to handle it and even though by the time I was in high school I got meds for it I still feel that with any trouble I still had my teachers handled it way better. Shout out to all the teachers at Holland High

  3. Required Particular says:

    The problem that makes autism “self diagnosis” different from other disorders, especially in the US, is that the testing is cost prohibitive and providers have a hard time justifying it to insurances if you aren’t “disabled enough.” If you don’t need enough services then even providers will scoff.

  4. Paloma Blumenthal says:

    A lot of these symptoms kind of resonate with me, especially the getting overwhelmed with noises and textures (I wear noise canceling headphones in class and get overwhelmed easily with noise) but they can all be explained by simple things- I have sensory processing disorder, I have ocd, and I’ve been homeschooled the majority of my life so I don’t really have social skills.

    • GeeklingNo1 says:

      i used to think that way but then i thought, why does it make more sense to have all these problems than to just have autism. I also thought it was because I was homeschooled but i ended up realising im actually autistic but because i was homeschooled my mom was able to adjust the way she taught me. I didn’t notice my autism until I went to college and really struggled to make friends.

  5. Tina Tin says:

    I’m 21 and female. I have been diagnosed with ADHD 3 years ago and it made so much sense. I started reading a lot about it and ofc i came across autism as well. The thing with my adhd is, it has always been very severe and my sensory problems and other similar symptoms made life really difficult. I never quite fit in and i studied classmates on how to “act correctly”. Also i have been called overly dramatic, sensitive, too loud and too much all my life. My twin is the same way as i am. We both struggle a lot in our own ways and the way we treat each other is very different to how we mask in front of for example colleagues. I just always thought it was a severe form of adhd but a lot of things like always wearing headphones, getting very overstimulated with many people, noises, touch, FOOD TEXTURE ect, having chronic migraines from masking, rocking and stimming to self soothe, feeling very uncomfortable with eye contact and so on, made me question a lot :// Reading other people, understanding facial expressions or understanding jokes is no problem most of the time. Or being touched by family/ friends is fine but sometimes unbearable? And we also have very very strong facial expressions. But then again it’s a spectrum and having the complete opposite of no expressions could also be a sign…. right? And i feel like some symptoms of adhd could possibly mask some autistic traits…??
    I also met my new colleague recently, which is on the spectrum. I talked to her a lot about my experience and she insisted on me and my sister to go and get tested for it, bc she’s sure we are somewhere on the spectrum.

    Oh and idk if that is important but i developed tourettes like a year ago which made my sensory problems and other things more severe and difficult and i’m just so unsure and confused about everything….
    All i know is that we are definitely neurodivergent and not at all made for this society :///

    In the end of the day it doesn’t matter if i have a diagnosis or not, i have lived with my struggles all my life and just have to find the right way deal with everything. Ik The diagnosis won’t change my life, bc things will stay the same, but i would still like to know i guess … idk.

  6. eLL cartoons says:

    This video is EVERYTHING. I seriously appreciate you using your platform to bring so much more awareness to us awesome weirdos!!! ❤️🙃🥳 Your toons are the best 😭🙌🏼 P.S. I WILL NEVER DO THE DISHES WITHOUT GLOVES.

    • Irene C says:

      Omg but when the water gets in the gloves 🤢

    • Elizabeth Olson says:

      My parents thought I was being super weird about wearing gloves!

    • Serendipity says:


    • katziliaf says:

      Totally agree! I’m an Aspie girl who has watched some Autism videos in the past, but never really related to many of them. Often because videos were too broad. Like more explanations to NTs or questioning peeps, than other Aspies. Other times, because I didn’t share the traits. Like, I’m relatively good at understanding sarcasm, so the “don’t get it” jokes don’t apply to me.

      But this basically sums up SO much. Especially the “hated for seemingly no reason” and the way girls are often different to boys, but boys are still seen as the only Autism group. (WHITE boys).

    • Buddi brown says:

      Ell I love your videos 😄

  7. Elizabeth Olson says:

    I relate to literally everything in this video, even the part about not wearing tight jeans because they’re itchy and wayyy too distracting. My mom knew I had ADHD from a young age but never did anything (or told me) about it because I still did “okay” in school. Little did she know that I struggled to listen to teachers, couldn’t make eye contact with most people, could barely take notes, hyper-focused on unimportant details, and struggled in social situations; just to name a few things. This is actually why I got into reading in middle school, I couldn’t make mistakes if I was reading a book.

    QUICK NOTE FOR PARENTS: please please please PLEASE tell your child if they are diagnosed with a mental disorder. Not telling them WILL LEAD to low self-esteem and negative thoughts about themselves. Think about it; If you are told over and over to not talk so much, to stop being over-dramatic and such, you are going to bottle your emotions up and isolate yourself. THIS IS BAD. HELP YOUR CHILD. They need support and keeping this a secret might lead to them thinking that you are ASHAMED of having a child with a mental disability. PLEASE take this into consideration.

  8. venusflytrash says:

    it feels amazing knowing that big youtubers are starting to talk about their mental health/mental illness experiences and are helping out their viewers in doing so. i’ve been thinking that maybe i’m on the spectrum for a few months now and have been looking into it a lot to see if anything that comes up is something i go through, but it’s hard because a lot of the stuff i find is meant for parents taking care of high-needs autistic children. the more i thought about it, the more i realized i had issues with sensory things, like icky textures, loud noises, lights going on and off in school classrooms, being *really* into something to the point of bringing it up whenever i can, ect. i’d do anything to get a proper diagnosis but right now im still a teenager and can’t get any medical help without my parent’s approval. for a while i was sure i have adhd (and i’m still sure because i still experience symptoms of it and my dad was diagnosed with it as a child) but like you said, it just doesn’t feel like that’s all that’s there.

  9. Matsuko Chan says:

    For my whole life I’ve always felt “different” than others. My mom used to say that I am just shy and sensitive etc, and that’s what I tought too.
    Now I am 19 years old and I got autism diagnose. It felt like the first time I understood myself and had a valid reason for the way I act. I can be chlidish and watch Lego Ninjago the whole day if I want to. I can explain to people why I am not good with groups. I can get the help I really need. I can stim if I want to. I can ask if I don’t understand something obvious. For the first time I have a reason why I am the way I am and it feels good. I am not just the girl who’s a bit weird and shy(even tho I am shy lol), I am autistic and that’s valid. That’s ok. <3

  10. Kimmmba Unicorn says:

    As a girl who also has autism, I find this video relatable when it comes to my experience. I was diagnosed at an early age. Most of my friends and family don’t understand what it’s like having it and they struggle to understand me. They do try their hardest to help me.

    I always bring headphones with me everywhere I go because they make things more manageable for me. I have issues with loud noises especially thunderstorms. They’re my biggest phobia since I was little because of how loud thunder is. I sometimes feel like I’m the only one who has sensory issues.

    I also hate make making eye contact with people since it’s uncomfortable to me. Masking is another thing I do too, when I was in high school, I always copy others behaviors in order for me to be seen as a “normal” person.

    I learned overtime that having it is okay. I always felt ashamed for having it due to how others treated me in the past. Some people make insults about my autism which kinda hurts my feelings like having autism is a bad thing.

    Thank you for making this video! This really made me happy 😊❤️

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